Hiding behind a smile

To see her is to relive childhood
all over again

To be with her is to be one,
To wake her is to ignite the innocence
and to cage her is to enrage the flow

And I don't know what I should do,
when I'm with her
I'm with myself so true
and yet so an entity
that I'm looking to refrain

I am feeling like
a prisoner, only happy
to be living purposefully again

I seek acceptance
and an understanding to grow
I brave formalities
and intimidations to flow

I wake up and dream
to be one besides,
not a fascination
but a nascence that
incenses the passion
that absence often plights

I don't know what'd change
I can't see that far
without you here

I saw a smiling face
in my dreams last night
and thought you'd be here
I drop of dew trickled
through my thoughts
and I saw you were waiting to hear ..