Is there anybody out there ?

Sound the bugle now, let it stir to me ..
Echoes reverberating in this silence
Are too loud for me to ignore
An indelible emotion voiced in this gloom
thats too stark for me to abhor ..

Can you hear me now ?
Do my words come out right ?
Am I really stumbling ?
Have you taken the flight ?

Or Is it just me cursed by the daylight ?

I'm trying to stop myself and think
I have to stop thinking and move on ..

Is there anybody out there ?

Knock .. Knock .. Open up
I find the truth in my reflection ..
Is there a relevance in this defiance ?

Come out and scream out your presence
There are words that must be said
and ones that must be heard ...

Alive amidst the vanity and guile
there are footsteps of the crowd ..
Rescued by fate, caressed by desires

Eclipsed is the smoke
Apparent are the clouds ..

Were you ever here ..
my eyes have so longed for a sight .. ?


Is there anybody out there ?

Are you another fantasy of mine ?
Are you a beauty too divine ?
Longing for the the last laugh
the passages between weep ..

Isn't today all there is .. ?

Or Is tomorrow turning up a glance again ?
Is the silence to soothe or depict scorn ?

Waiting for an answer still ..
From dusk to dawn
For a many a gem that eyes
fathom turn green

And all others are a feigned excuse

Living with virtues I find best in solitude
I seem to have forayed beyond the boundaries of a recluse
And watching the hurried from the sidelines

Waiting for my auspicious flight benign ..
And Until it sleeps, I'm hopeful all will turn fair


Is there anybody out there ?

Stone walls .. do not a prison make
Nor Iron bars a cage ..
As minds innocent and quiet
benumbed by altruism
take to life as a hermitage

Of all the causes that conspire to blind
Erring a man's judgment, protruding the mind

Where should the spirit of a mortal proceed ?
Like an aimless meteor or a prisoner set free ..

On mercy , at life's decree


Is there anybody out there ?


I have my freedom in love
And promises that make me salvage each gain
And with every absence I've grown up to relinquish
A fistful of hope ..
A new epitome of this game !

Single Discomfort ..



It lies not in our hands
to love or hate
For
that will in us
Is overruled by fate

It is though with us
To uphold and choose
To tether, scamper ..
Move ahead or be refused

Consummated
In this anomaly
perplexed to dissolve the
binding affinity

Living on a prayer
To gather courage
to save
the dying integrity

The silent thought
and the whispering lies
The pretense that lingers
in the mannerisms
And the truth
that shines in the eyes

The hurt lies
In the ulterior
The antidote we seek outside
Once naked ..
How can the truth be disguised ?

Standing alone
Hurling in this abode ..
So used to living underneath
the surface
Waiting forever in
the eye of the storm

I ask from
the heavenly skies
I still ask from
the shadows of the hue
Letting go of all I've held on to ..

Completely Incomplete
Overwritten yet far from obsolete
The single discomfort
Drives my sight
Furthers my resistance
and
keeps me alive ..

Guilty ..



I testify
I made a mistake
I cant run
I have no space to hide
I wish I could lie
I wish the
walls would open up ..
And I wouldn't
have to sulk every night
I must rectify
But
Where to begin from
and
Who all to pacify ..
The whole world
seems to be
cornering me
with questioning eyes
A mistake is one
In which intentions
don't dwindle
Just the worldly ways are
belied ..
It happened
one night
Too dark too see now
Too bright to dignify
What becomes of a disgrace ?
Is a shade more cursed than
A black spot ..
This fear will perhaps
pass death by ..
Why .. what no one can understand..
Is yet what matters,
Why cannot something else suffice ?
I see an image
of mine
painted black
In a colorful world
I close my eyes
It just doesn't pass me by ..
I see truth lingering
On my lips
I see lies smiling
At me wry ..
Matters that
We have no control over ..
Are also the ones we cant deny
In matters of heart
I wish the mind could
walk me by ..
Guilt ridden
In my bed
waiting for
an answer
As questions
pile up on my soul ..
and enlarge this void
I muster up for resurgence
As I prepare to let go ..
I have feared enough the
consequences
I must now do ..
I have nothing to lose
Nothing more to hide ..

All the thoughts
I think
and
All that
I choose
not to speak
Are the ones
that keep
me up
and thinking all night ..

The night is alive ..

The night is alive
with the dreams
I've kept besides
with the thoughts
you've brushed aside

The wailing moon
and the battered wind
unaided by the
songs of dusk

The silken hues
The garlanded smoke
And the clouds
smudged to fray

A dismal gray
the world up above
and the one beneath
a crimson red

A few sold promises
and the
parting songs ..
some broken lyrics
upturned
enervating all stares ..
grazing along

The lost sleep
the dry eyes
And
the cool night breeze ..

The cushion
and
the prayer
The sun of tomorrow
still far to bare ..

The night is alive
with the hopes and visions
that may perpetuate
in the day

With the misty hymns
Of rusty dew
that fall
only to rise within ..

The vanity blanketed
the curtains
guarding the door
The wind slipping
into the head
and
Reality all to abhor ..

I left the glory of the illumined mind
In search of the
calm rupture of the soul
I gazed for you in the blue light
And far alongside the bolted shore ..

The night is alive
As I Pause sometimes
along the way
to notice the between
In now and then

I stand in the
shades of the moonlight
bereft
As memory calls again ..

Traveling
through the vastness
dim and blind
Receiving each mild spirit
till I dispel my con

I paid no
heed to its might
And all sights came
swirling to life ..

The crease on the face
and the timely brow
The pitiful tender cries
cannot still . . let go

Come .. long have I sought
Long have I wailed,
And a weary day would then rest
conquered on its foe's behest

Will dream of death when I sleep
but life shall bring me out alive
Should I sleep while you flee..
To not then board the fight

The angels heed
Who can relieve me
Of this state,
I have treasured it far too long ..

The night is brighter now
Could I wait while
its emptying
Should I move along ?

No footprints of my track will ever be ..
Silently it will all merge to dawn

You and Me ..

Life was given
to you and me alike
We did live it
before
we could unite

And that then
things were to turn
Oh ! so bright


What is the reason then she asks
What brought us to sight ?
The need to unite ..

A reason ..
one that brought my thoughts alive
A reason for every color
for
every laughter and pain
Yet The most sacred emotion of all
to the facet or a rationale
inane ..

The days are moving fast
and its your thoughts that're
keeping me sane
The nights are lingering
with echoes
and I all hear .. is of
all that wasn't to remain ..

Thoughts that I think
You'd think too
The ones that keep me in check
and the ones that may never be true ..

And In your disclaimers
would you let this ensue

'Love doesn't need a reason...he says..
touches my lives in so many ways
I wonder what life would be
without his hand to hold...!
What is it...
that i don't want to let go..
When stars seem reachable
the false guards have given up
Vainly they tried,
to hold back
Vainly I try
to think,
when life has rolled out the red carpet!!!
Should I merrily glide..?
The fears consume me.
What is that I fear....
When the courage itself holds me!
A canvas laid out.. if only I would paint..........!'


Days, since have passed
and that seemingly dead
has been brought to life and well bred
and that blooming
is fast asleep

Worries have given way to time
and time has brought new worries
for if the old ones choose to dissipate

Looking for the best, the better must give way
The sight than chooses
if a trick or treat is an overture
If what was .. is and has shaped in this today

Togetherness is lost
while self is derived to portray
Another canvas to lay out now
The blank sheet of paper is now hay

Burning thoughtless visions
are best put the order of the day
the beginning of an end
must too be salvaged
Like lot there is left still to say ..

Yet what remains or stays
would only be for You and me to weigh
The great middle road,
The extremist take

A bridge of both worlds .. You and me, in everyway ..

Today

Beginning each day
Pinning hope
from the sun
to shine on my way
I set forth to live ..
Moving closer
to the stars
by night
The ones
that shine
alongside the moon
Visibly apparent
just like in my dreams
Invisible yet Glittering
My sky's distant
yet my hopes
aren't fluttering

On the distant anvil
I see
the dawn of yesterday
setting,
settling in
Beside me I see
A spade of narratives
Under
A shade of hands
Pieces of broken mirror
interwoven
with the trailing sands ..

I count no more
my wasted tears
They left no echo
of their fall ..
I mourn no more
my lonesome
years
This blessed hour
atones for all
I fear not
all that
Time or fate
May bring to burden
the heart or brow ..

The vision thats bare
the starkness
repudiated
in the storm
The one within
and all that's akin
Of the few hopes
that crashed
And of agony and disdain
that lashed
To take off the
remnants
that in the end
kept me all too sane ..

No sooner did the old hope
drop to the ground
Than
A new one
straight to the
selfsame mark ..

I shape me
And another today not afar ..

To you ...


I try and write
what I cannot say
I cannot say ..
I wonder how they do ..
Something perceptible ..
Retiring to admit,
Copious to pursue
I hear echoes within
I hear them true
I tried to blasphemise
More entangled I grew
To say what
I am not able to
Dumbfounded
Why I would need to ..
I may not do it
I may never reach you
How can I best say ..
It wouldn't really
be a 'life'
without you
If it would happen someday
I wouldn't know
If I should wait
that long
How long in that wait I'd grow ?
I would never know if it'd come true
I'm confronted
being honest ..
Risking self
I search for the aspect of me
thats you ..
To bring something
to shape
from darkness
And to let it brew ..
Wonder what'll happen
If I let it ensue
Perish in the travails
Become someone to you ..
I am so lost into words
Yet I'm helpless without them too
Pitiful yet, they don't bring
me any closer to you ..
If words wouldn't do it
Would my thoughts ever reach you ?
The ones that resonate
the absence
within me
pacify the quest that
makes you
wander too ..
I started from myself
today
I hope tomorrow brings us to two
A me and a you ..

With or without You ..



It started out as dew
that, from my eyes
set forth to make way to you ..

It fell on the ground
Yet there was no sound
You were .. no where to be found

The moist earth beneath my feet
ready to soak my tears
but not the pain

How far can I go playing inane ?

With or without you ...

The wetness of my cheek
had now begun to dry
but the thoughts
still would lead me to you

Being alone,
I thought
that I grew up with my share of hollow
yet, it now strangely seems . .

I fought these feelings
when I found you
I fight them .. again

With or without you ...

In my sleep
my hands reach out
Even as to the world
I keep mum .. of this fall

As every thought brings
you close
The words never said
were implicit to the core

More than ever before ..

In every day of the week
with every thought that
I would speak and
All that I'd keep within
I would wait for you to make me start
and yet never let us begin ..

Of every story that
I'd still dream
If fate wouldn't have intervened
Could I have lit up this dream?

With or without you ...

I wished for you to give me joy
Every little happiness,
my life .. to which
I was coy

To make me see the fruits of my pain,
be my partner, dance in the rain

If I'd ever cry alone
you'd be my tear
Emanate from me
and that smile then
would follow soon
Relieving me from my fears

Of everything that began
nothing seems to continue

With or without you ...

I never wished the memories
If only they could go
Of days with no beginnings
Days, when the time had heart
Moments that we were never apart

Yet I see things from those eyes
I smile at those pretty lies
the ones that still put this truth to shame
A picture of two with broken smiles
and
faded names ..

I would never know
if you felt it too ..
I felt forever
there's a lot more we
could make
Of what we couldn't pursue

With or without you ...

I still look for reasons
as the void points to the truth
Living for the consequences
the treason would accrue ..

And I wait for the blur to fall
the winds to cease
for me to extol

The things that now end
Of shapeless roads now twist and bend
the ways that narrow
The smile I can no longer pretend ..

The mind floats when the heart doesn't react
keeping the love and freedom sacred

To all that now we may be able to do ...

With or without you ...


I wish you knew
the feelings
that were always in my heart
Maybe the ones you chose to speak of
were the ones that couldn't keep us far ..

What would I not give
To make it go away ..
But for something besides you
If I ever did hold ...

Did life give us our due ?
Either ways
I'm alive
and must continue

With or without you ...