BREAKING DAWN

An open door

with eyes wide shut

a breathing body

with a decrepit soul

sense of a life of semblance

with no human form to embrace or abhor 

For every start the answer is new

the path is unknown

and the reason is you

A sense of fear of not loneliness,

but a dark spell

cast by the envious white light

cursing me with nothing else but insight

Where could this take me, no cure

living inside a mind

I'm trapped and abject

to all around, unsure

And you couldn't come to see

me at dusk

I bared my soul 

to the crowd

and yet you could only be

who you were

who you wanted to be

someone, somewhere

but not a cure for my insanity

In broken ways I wonder why I still ask

for you

for myself

for any insipid ask

Should I just mourn or wait for twilight

if you could see me now

I'd disappear into the background of 'despite'

I couldn't ask you question

how could I

what if you had an answer

for all I would have is an alibi

for standing, waiting

not moving or seeing

anything else left for me from yesterday

except you...

Tonight stands for you and me

for all that we are

and for all that we can never be

ASYLUM

 Wake me up 

I want to climb up the wall

don't trim me down

I'm not going taking the fall

I'm not looking for shelter

or a place to weep

drink me down with the dew

I'm running through my sleep

Shades in this darkness

have the same hue

silence before the storm

that I'm fighting over you..

Where do you dissipate,

my philandering soul

why do you nest in the

sordid sky

Why when you can't walk

you want to size the earth

spleen the green

and sip the mirth

I prayed for wings

but my tears bled me dry

I leapt in the air

but the ground fell shy

I call for your dreams

mine are far behind my sight

don't think of me when I'm gone

I wouldn't be glad to know 

I was right

Kill me if you must

but let me know if we survived

I've lost fear of dying

for its living that I've survived

When I'm done sleeping

I'll gauge my fall

look in the mirror

and wait for you call...

Perfectly lonely

something somewhere

somewhat amiss

thinking and grieving

I can but ignore

where is the silence

that I've not wanted to endure

in between walls

sounds of hollow shaken beauty

and a myth of

guarded demons shadowing the night

tame the hunger

the desire, the greed

taste the bittersweet

the ride to follow

here comes the sun

here comes the sun

no sun to follow

the darkness too hollow

the mystery is

that there is but none

a want to deep

and a rage to run

far and wild

and up and above

to a placed call home

where I will meet love

and but there the story won't end...

Face-lift

Take me in your stride

I've been an eyesore for long

Or tell me where to hide

Now that I've found you

I can't move on

At least tell me the meaning of this divide

I can't fathom another misfortune

Leaving and parting are meanings

I fail to accept

I've been numb far too long

People came and left

and took with them

what they saw was warm

when you came around and

mended me through

time seemed to stand still

and life seemed to renew

I woke up and sought a new life

and forgot the miseries that befell

Sing me now a victory song

before you move to your seams

I wish there was no more storms

but such is life

and I too will march on

MINDFUL

I don’t hide it

But I wish I could side it

With my might I can light it

But with your rationality you can sight it…

I can but say and ignore

Wanting before speaking

And thinking after knowing

What I have is most pure

And what I let go

Will get brighter in the day

All those dreams will get stronger

While I keep them at bay

And all the silence that I hold inside

Will keep me farther from you and the light

I wish to tell you that this mad outlaw

Is also a reason of a sordid flaw

That is innate in me, that is me

That is you, that is pure

Of course there are aberrations

How can they not be

When you’re dealing with humans

Who can be emotional but not sure

Pure and impure are transient in time

Can you sing me with sanity any long lost rhyme?

You’ll see the meaning fades away

Faces wrinkle and voices wither away

A pale shadow of our mortal self

Every yesterday will tell you too

Thinking will not cut it

Doing it will make us true

I can hold onto dreams

Till they turn into reality

Till they make me see you

In the morning light

And under the night sky akin

But what do I do with reasons

That tell me I’m not to be myself

Not in front of scores

Not till we’ve see this phase

Not till we've lived in place

In lieu of what we are meant to be...