Abominable lull


By now, we know
how to communicate
Instead of coming to blows,
we're on a roll
There ain't no stopping us
there are no voices calling us
except those, from
within

We were flowing,
burning under control ..
strange how we're all
waiting to absolve
How will all this play ?

I close my eyes it's still there
I find it lingering there
still ..
where I was lost y'day.
Gravity has got a hold on us all
and we return to the first fall
not knowing history holds
fate true ..

The silent source of light
and the bright
illumined day
two eyes deprived of
vision and
a lost sense
of time
and
of feelings giving way ..

Don't bring back what
you took away
Aspire me semblance
while I turn to another day

Seek me a shadow
that will reflect my darkness
the way your silence does
while the empty spaces
are
just two ..
one within me
and
another outside of you ..

Crossroads


Places and things and
emptiness apart
what's shared is sacred and
embedded in the heart
what hurts is why then
they say its falling apart ..

The silence has become a morbid lull
the wind has fast captured my leap
The journey that was over, before it began
has abrupted, lulling my sleep

Out of our comfort zone
and in the blue thats fast turned grey
I sit here noticing changes
and moments is all I live
all I live in, night or day

Fast was its reach
and slow was the hold
why then, the question
Whose grasp was a virtue of a less solemn hold ?

Nothingness is my absolute gain
that I savor for long and in full
I wait for a consequence with elan
knowing well, destiny's reaping me nil

The distance is not my worry
The progression never my hurry
The emotion I am trying hard to refrain

In the solitary confines of my being
I perch sordidly,
as merged with my entity
is now your name

I've seen the heaven,
the blackout of today then
is mortality
I'm abstaining to reclaim,
learning to tame ..

Our entity remains
and
the wait
into another beautiful journey ..

Someday the sore eyes will dream again ..

Free ..


In brightness of the day
dark begins to sway,
the legion
of troops comforted
to find

A brief source of light
and pillow of winds
to caress
and
candle light,
both ends burning

Cold, contemplative change
with an
an endless mile,
running from the lost
to never be found

Eternity like a bus wheel
seems to be turning
Swaying from the core
the source of light
turning

A friend to share
the lonesome times
A foe to remind of the
burdened rhymes

Preface to an obligation
and comforting words
hard to find,
with a handshake
and
sip of wine

So, say it aloud
and
let it sing

We are all
a part of everything
The future, present and the past
riding on the worry of
making it the last ..

Nothing emanating from something
and everyone
holding on to someone

Freedom of speech,
is it
freedom from thoughts ?
How is absence equaled to
permanence of lost ?

From cages of belonging
you seek to be
severed from affinity
What does silence brings fast ?

Fly on proud bird
You're free at last ..

Promises


I had saved a few
endeavors for you
The ones
I had held close,
planning to let dreams brew

Placed midway between
often and someday
Leaving words lingering
before fanciful thoughts
could put
mind to disarray

Some notions
I believed to be
true
And some stories
that contorted the view

The word was out and
only
dissipation would hold
the real cue
Mortality became my sin
and impermanence
was my time frame
to sort the stew

Promises, I realize
bring as much as they
take
and yet
yield more than
ligatured
the affirmation silence brings
the summation of preface
and peroration

Hanging ceilings
that echo
wouldn't ever get to
voice it through
what I promise
would remain
and dissolve with you ..

The promises enslave
the heart
and the mind rescinds ..

The altercation is
hard to bind ..
The feeling of losing
what you couldn't
ever find

I still promise
to keep up
on the way ..
To look after
what began
and search where
the essence bustled away

My promises are
my demur,
that capacitate me
to you each day ..

Shadow



The light's bright
and its dark no more
I am out,
meandering
and
my shadow follows
me to assure ..

From dusk to dawn
The world's then
my lawn
I'm walking mellow
as its blessed spawn,
carefree like a swan ..

My alter ego,
in the shade
is not visible
but hidden besides,
strides gallantly
when amongst the scores ..

There ain't
no need
for pursuance
anymore
For I have been long
chased in the shade,
by myself
but no more ..

Excavated then,
underneath the surface
to relocate the remains..
Holding fast to my spade
I play narrative
to this surrogate ploy

The darkness and light
blend beautifully
if you'd see
One begins the other
and
the other's arrival
sets it free

Its hard to tell
then
whys the period
amongst the two interim
and yet the
persona incomplete
without..

The sun sprouts everyday
to lend an entity
perhaps
to its
successor,
the long black cloud ..

The way my shade
emerges,
in this farce ..
In a shining black armor
on a light ridden day
gallantly forging
in my march ..

There are other shadows
that I sometimes as my own see
they however lose luster
as I continue to be me ..

A shadows upholds
feelings that in an entity subside
The shadow is all about
solidarity,
in abstraction
that even its absence cant deny ..

Great Expectations

Faith is not a nascent delight
Neither a bliss of mercy,
nor a freight paid en route
to twilight

As humans,
we're endowed with hope
A barrel of wishes
irreverent to any sunlight

Thoughts and feelings
rise like a tide from the
shore
Enchanted by the boundless
prospect
of whats in store ..

Hope travels
faster than words
And prayer faster
than agony is pursued
Vented feelings dissipate
and the ones upheld
seldom meet the truth ..

The love song plays
in the background
stirring hopes
of attaining, the love divine
A hopeless romantic in love
is one
hopeful of love true ..
And not one whining,
frail songs through and through ..

To expect in a way
is to live free
To let it influence perspective
Is what
cages a reason to mercy!

Of a few broken promises
Of a few circumstanced
true lies
Of vision spilled from
the eyes in the innate
darkness
Of flowing dreams
frozen to sight

With the ringing
of the laughter
that I rigorously abhor,
that
I keep falling for,
more and more ..

The unsaid words
that have now grown
unfelt too
All that was truth back then,
is now,
just what I said to you ..

Dream of a star,
perhaps
not quite apportioned to view

Like an incomplete meeting
preceding a painful song..
Purposes to guide us
that strive us to Unbelong

A lonely prayer on a silent
black night,
Few last whispers
before finally bowing to light ..
Losing the sight

Great expectations become
greater with life,
as disappointments
dissipate from view ..

Things that I think about
today
would tomorrow
render my vision eclipsed
for a view ..

Heading Home ..

Be strong tonight,
remember who you are
Memories are at play
misty eyed visions
are blurred
and best kept at bay

The passage has long
kept reeling
the world hasn't come to
standstill
as I'm comforting myself
to the feeling

Faced with propositions
tempting insane
Feelings hurling,
Have I become profane ?

The guild of my guardians
are holding the blame
For all my endeavors
ready to fight all claims

The one most troubling,
yet, is poised within .

I've growing delusions
of becoming insane
I work towards sanity
to rest their claims

Walking blindfolded
on the cliff
Nirvana,
I've decided to abstain

I'm heading home ..

Ready to begin
where I left
when my eyes closed
to the world last night ..

The End ..

That which is complete
is easier to comprehend
As that free is hardly known
or understood,
nothing or no one to pretend

To glow in the dark
is a mortal wish
To fade to black
is what we all
safely accomplish ..

Being faded then
is a kind bliss
Not as what had been
remedied though
For there, spiritualized it lay
A perpetual yesterday ..

As shades hide
what has never been
Yet, if any wishes
reality could entertain
In this nonchalant series
of unfortunate events
All that you get is customized pain ..

A time without beginning,
prologue or a preface
And a journey with only recollections
of being
farther than near ..
Of being stuck in a moment
the ' falling apart ' fear

A brief moment in between
when I lived
Brief as
the rub of green
was fast turning pale ..
The present growing
stale
The memories
breathed,
the perspectives exhaled

And before
it could set in
A few springs were
all too bright
for life
to sense the sheen ..

Moments of everlastingness
& fortunate
was my search then
While what I sought
nonetheless
that, I was seeking,
I never did guess ..

They screamed in my ears,
and once I did hear them say ..
'Day after day, love turns Grey
Like the skin of a dead man ..
Night after night
we pretend it going to be alright'
.. you've grown colder
and I've turned bolder ..

Gone has the wild day & matured
has the night
Having lived with a purpose
a li'l something more
that .. makes the conclusion discreet

Among the clouds then again
where firm roads soak
the roaring peace comes .. the end.

Death Of Life ..

She was standing there,
right in front of my eyes
Tracing the footsteps
of the wind,
capturing the
bloom in her merry ways

A storm, not rain
could fiddle her plans
She was madly in love
And no fear or disdain
A throne all her's
to proclaim ..

A moment
etched far too vividly
in my memory,
for any truth to deny
The reason behind which
every logic
sought refuge and
got denied ..

Running wild
she didn't want no hand
to hold
Cliffs and ridges,
mountains and sunrise
Her melancholy song
would be echoing
far and long

Her joyous grace
would impair my pain
She would mend a smile
and plant it to the heart
& long then, it would sustain ..

She would chase
the meandering butterflies
She would leap to caress
the ever so near blue skies

And surf the coast to
ride the waves,
The whole world in her stride,
she in the driver's seat
and
me a pillion of this race,
amazing grace ..

Race, it was against time
Race it was for me to find
and
to look through her defenses
In the locked walls of her heart
was the secret,
she was living to guard

She would smile in pain too
and when she would cry
it'd rain out of the blue ..

Never running away,
she could yet so successfully
hide
If she was an actor,
this movie, would go on for life ..

And then one day
when it was black all the way
The sun refused to shine
The wind stopped dead
and
the bloom turned pale.

There came the day when
at last, the magic fell
The air had ominous signs
and silence was its spell ..

She left without a goodbye
She didn't let go and
yet went by.
You could hear death, sulking wry

She had only love to give
And
that she made sure,
she never did hide ..

If I could die to live her once
I'd emulate her and go through
To find here near
still standing there ..
and
make her wait turn true ..

Our love is not a wasteland
of promises in pain
To the past, present and the future
Everything remains ..

I'd give them your voice
I'd tell them to seek the truth
I begin from where we left,
from where
we'd still continue ..


She was standing there ..
And with every step I took
she flew high ..

Nascence ..

We stand and pose
In the middle of the crowd
screaming, all force
trying to make way
to look all around,
find every face unsure

There silence in the eyes
and
questions across the face
With a poignant grace
its a mortal wish to
resurface
Backing every trace

They look upto you
and you'd play, the cynosure
I would stay there gazing
and reality is all
there is.. after or before,
to live with or condemn,
abhor ..

The ways are narrowed
and the paths have unbelonged
the distance has blended
and the passages
seem so wrong

Bottled up inside are the
feelings
we never fought
Engaged in conundrums
aplenty
the pertinent,
never given enough thought

At the crossroads,
that call forth conviction
Jocund feelings fast melting
gifting a lifetime of resonance
and a fair bit of affliction

I experience this epiphany
today,
the joy in pain
and the upholding endeavor
melting away..

I'm so happy
I feel myself true ..
outside the shadows
that long defined the view
I feel .. I do ..
all unto .. looking at you
When its one need,
What can you do .. ?

Nascence pervades
when senses fail
Dreams be dreams ..
And let the valiant
tries fetch no avail ..

The skies blue and
we cant fly
The grass is green
and somewhere between those two
I lie ..

And yet it'd be questioned
Why nascence still prevails .. ?