Find me

Closely
if you'll see
there is something
missing
within you
and
thats me

Folded within
deep layers
of thrust
is
the heart
that never
gave up on us

See through
the walls
and
embedded
echoes will
give way

Do try
to find me
I'd be in your way someday

Changes,
life teaches
those everyday
There are ones
to be lived
are
then there are those
that we
fear anyway

Bliss
in the darkness
for is me
is at most when
I find
a ray
of hope
and a picture
of you in my mind

You wouldn't
know
I'm still
here,
doing
what you thought
I left long back
there with you,
on the go

But here I am
and
my feet don't
move
My heart's blind
and
I do think I need those new

Come down from
the stage someday
and ...

Do try
to find me
I'd be the one in the last row to leave

Affinity,
no that lasts an eternity
who are
you and me
to curtail its flow

Life's a tide,
we're surfing on
its shore
and there is as much
life on the surface
as down below

And there on nights
that you sneak a look
out the window
you see an image
of yourself
sans the identity
that you so longed
in isolation to make

Notice now,
the things
you're running most after
are the
things you'll take longest
to make
are just like
those tears
you hid
when crying was most reveled
to our wake

In your sleep
and
out there
in the hay
there are no needles
that you need to put away
thread away
the longings, don't fear

When you come along,
bring me in

Find me
and
when you do, you'll know
I never did disappear ...

Obituary

I live among the dead and
there is no wake

I stand with the corpses
and
I pose their questions for my being's sake

Who .. What .. Why?

What purpose did death solve?
How did you take that step,
the leap of fear?
How did death come out
mortal cheer?

Stop it now
The scars are deep
and
they don't heal

Stop this dance of death,
mourn your follies
and turn a corner
to another quest or zeal

Remember
the first step,
the time you did not know hate

Remember
when everything you did
was you and there was no fate

Since steel emblazoned
those nerves
emotions calmed the rupture
of love's bear

I pity my numb
and incompetent being,
On the mercy of words
I pledge for their grief

Those who lost track
of their mounting fear ...

Tell me who feels most the death of pain?
Tell me who feels most the pain of death?

Now that the dead are gone
who is it
that dies every step and year

Tell me there is a way
to undo this coerced hurt
that chokes my senses
whenever I hear cries

How can one forget
the pain and restraint
when there is blood shooting
through the eyes ...

Pain takes us places
we'd never want to go
Pain wries our paces
leaving lives remorsefully slow

I live within the dead
and there is no wake

What is the cause?
Where is the solution?
What road did mercy take?
When strength forfeited mid way

They say god gives us burdens
we can take
that make us stretch
in our own wake

I turn agnostic
I turn agnostic,
my patience's fake

I cant suffer in anyone's
pain,
that misery is too hard to take

I'll tell you these regrets
don't take us far
thought they make
the purpose clear

But in such vain
what is it that you can seek,
revenge or overcoming the very fear?

I do still cry
when those images
vividly dwell into my eyes,
I cry till they
flow from my sight

I die among the dead
and there is no wake

We can't live here no matter what
they say
But where do we go
where do we go now?

Its the end of the world
we killed it all in our own rage ...

Back again

Wrestling with words
you never spoke
coping with
the collisions
the silence was to evoke

Wanting the misery
to take its
place,
the smile anyway
is more painful to the face

Paranoid for a trace
lost in a cascading embrace
embedded deep within
are traces
of the unforgettable
grimace

This silence
has a different sound
over and over
come and
hear it echo
in my head

Behind closed
memories,
years
are gearing up
The yearn
is growing
to let it slip
for once

Controlling the yearn
shape the
tears
I routed
to your name
thy grace
and cheers

I lost my
place,
the chance
to pucker up
and gain
my trust again

now I write songs
in echo
of your wake

Don't you want to approve?
Don't you want the sound
that once made you sway?

I've made my bucket list
and
I'm floating with the letters
in my head

And like tomorrow
there'll be thoughts of y'day

I'll look out for me
when I lookout for you
And until I find
the one in me
I'll keep searching
coming back for you ...

Where ..

Look besides
there is noone
Nothing or noone
who's waiting,
gaiting the tide

Alter the core,
filter
and tither the encore

Settle the claims
time is long past now
for the
future is about
to make way

Where are we
headed?
Where is our today?

No promises
just love
No grimaces
just us

Where is that
truth hidden
that we witnessed
each night
before this day?

Where in the
world
than,
that is my world
Where is the place
where thoughts
meet progress unheralded

Where do I find
rationalizations
not dithering
my being?

Show me the way
flying bird
or teach me how to fly home

Blink

Soggy, wet restrain
Perspective shifting to mode abstain
Bewilderness of a child
and ten blue eyes
Mission unaccomplished
drowning in vain

Middle of the path road
brain squirming like a toad
breathing down annihilation of thoughts

How did we lose,
when we never wished to have fought?

Sample a bad day
listlessness followed by dismay

No reason for logic
and no thoughts to wake
No more room for comfort
or placid cheer
Herein lies the anamoly
to the wake

Rub the wellness
and cleanse the vows
No strategy, no will
whats all this wisdom,
the biggest Overkill

People find it easy
to hate
and hate finds
it easy to hold

pain of a possible future
and misery of the past
thoughts converging
into bunkum strategies
that occupy hope
but seldom last

Did you blink,
to a glimpse of the rising?
Did you settle the gaze
as the sun lazened to the shore?

I wouldn't know of
such sight

I wouldn't know
who last felt lost plight

Blink, to the dawn,
the journeys,
the veritable sailing
and the sliding doors

Blink to the mercy
that we have another day
to drive it to the shore