BREAKING DAWN

An open door

with eyes wide shut

a breathing body

with a decrepit soul

sense of a life of semblance

with no human form to embrace or abhor 

For every start the answer is new

the path is unknown

and the reason is you

A sense of fear of not loneliness,

but a dark spell

cast by the envious white light

cursing me with nothing else but insight

Where could this take me, no cure

living inside a mind

I'm trapped and abject

to all around, unsure

And you couldn't come to see

me at dusk

I bared my soul 

to the crowd

and yet you could only be

who you were

who you wanted to be

someone, somewhere

but not a cure for my insanity

In broken ways I wonder why I still ask

for you

for myself

for any insipid ask

Should I just mourn or wait for twilight

if you could see me now

I'd disappear into the background of 'despite'

I couldn't ask you question

how could I

what if you had an answer

for all I would have is an alibi

for standing, waiting

not moving or seeing

anything else left for me from yesterday

except you...

Tonight stands for you and me

for all that we are

and for all that we can never be