Beauty in the breakdown

I'm so lost for you
I don't know where to find

myself
I'm so craved for truth
yet I don't know if it's
what I need from you

Such boundless pleasure
we've known
It was all so amazing

the seeds of pleasure

we've sown

So many dreams,
none worth the
things we've ever known

Out of my days and
into my nights
you've calmed my remains
into piles of delight

And knowing you
it comes from a place,
a feeling of total solace

And I look at myself
and I look at you
I wonder motion
without my skates

I look at the price tag

of my life

when I find our love's

at stake

If I live longer
to climb more stairs
Will it ever feel so high?

Without you,
I'll let you decide
as you follow

I face the glances
from those hiding chances
and some silence
from the fate above

Thinking its a sign
I willingly resign
Who am I to speculate,
when the pieces do
not form shape

and coagulate?

Waiting if someone
else I can miss today
I move away

I move far away
because everything
looks perfect from far

I thought all that I
needed most
would make me weep

but its what I never had
that kept pricking in deep

To keep searching
where it left most space
I filled up my head
with memory of happy days

None would curve
and lead me here today

Like water frozen in winter
I lie locked
watching it all go

I can see it
caged, all of it
would never return

It goes like this
and from there
its just pieces to lift
such was the drift

And it seems
I've been here
I seen the goodbye and
I've walked along the lonely shore

It never ends

and we can stay up

and cry

or let it felt

compromising

Till spring comes

we'll be learning to fly ...