Inhibitions

I see
where they come from
I know they're there
and
its so because you decide

When it began,
there was a silver lining
and
beneath it
a vow, which
said you choose to decide

You could still
run and hide
hold back
and
let it slip
or
hold back
and let it rip..

See every drop
of that falling drip
and never quip

Comes only,
when you sternly decide
Let sensibility prevail
and
die serendipity die..

Even as you'd no longer
to your instincts abide

Cant you see you're
simply keeping
the past alive..

Not caring, if it hurts
in search for control
a beautiful mind, yes
but what about
the listless soul?

Eroding morality
or
protruding profanity
take a cue,
everyone around
is just out to outdo

There ain't
no mended walls
I see no one
is ready to stop and care

I wish the wait
would end and
all that's moving
would stillness numb

It holds my dreams
it binds my roads
and even the ways
to those skies

What would I want?
What should I still want from you?
Why would I seek
when guilt lounges
and doubt threatens to
prolong their pursuit?

I can't live with
the truth and
yet what would delusions reap?

Pushing the door open,
that opens memories
Oh no, keep it closed
My indignation further
retracts
and disappears
as I see you steep..

Inhibitions,
they keep you
from reaching yourself
keep all emotions at bay

Never resting
yet restlessly
pushing away

Purpose then
presents a skewed view
and yet those shadows never
come to view

People say
this is the truth,
anything that leads
to painful disbelief
thirst-quenching pour
of soul-emptying grief

But
before I choose
to go there again,
remind me of where it all began

No good standing
with it in your withhold
hiding it behind closed doors
and unbolting
it from time to time
to keep the wounds sore

Why settle for something
that was once told..

To live in restraint
when life offers love,
abundant and free

A place for serenity
lest
intermittent sunlight

What is life
if not full of care
Does restraint
really take you away
from your fear?
How is life lived without
letting yourself be?
How do you constrain
self-imposed misery?

There are no answers,
the ones there are
are nestled within
to exhibit
the inhibitions
at play..!