Unbelong to retrieve ..

I sit here and think
what becomes
what happens
Pensive thoughts ..
when come through
doors unabated

Opening up the feelings bottled
remnants of the moments
that ended before
I could stop blinking ..

Coasting like a merry saint
ferrying on wings of an oblivious hope
Sitting by the moonlight on the shore
not willing to accept the change

Yet on a planet
Of thoughts that multiply
in darkness or pain
forever and evermore ..

Ridiculed by regrets
waiting for no more ..
wanting a breakthrough
Oscillating back and forth to the core

The facts that distance
puts in my face
the stack of existences
that are piling up
Inside me, of you ..

I wish we had known
each other for years
Would have made the difference
If I could see ..

I wish I could have spend
what I've earned
And all that I owe, to you
the love in arrears ..

As .. now penniless,
full of fears
Is the time for goodbye
the end of dreams
The silence of the screams ..

The warmth before the fears
The feeling of joy before and
in between pain
A courage so mustered
now flowing profusely
down the drain ..

To love everyday, in everyway
with no regret or solace
To grow comfortingly
gullible and yet never resent the pain

Leaving behind the confines of solitude
towards anonymity of a different kind
An ephemeral set of acclaim

Best settled for .. with disdain
Unbelong to retrieve
to commensurate
every new advent without prejudice and yet abstain ..