GONE

The bed is made on your side
and the curtains are drawn
the oxygen's missing
and death seems nearer than dawn

deaf-tones seeping from bleeding walls
are but echoes of the broken falls
empty vases and charred remains
are remnants of how far this longing's spanned

the dust on the shoes is now rust
the flame is the desires has long turned ash
the rain has long stood guard to my moist eyes
coming down each time to see me
when I feel lonely without your lullaby's

like a traveler you've join back the race
leaving behind an essence of an embrace,
an empty frame and a pair of numb hands
are not half as painful as the never ending nights

rise, like the phoenix and sail in my direction
and teach me the real magic of painting smiles
the necromancy you can accomplish
is dearer to those living out lies 

I could write a thousand words today about a hug

sing a million why you should be mine
holding a few pieces of my heart in my hand
I close my eyes to turn back time

if you know how much of yourself you left behind
you'd come back for me, and change my world 
one more time the way you had done
the magic in this might
will reunite all that customs had to divide

or call me, a hopeless drifter, in your direction
like a bag of plastic, weightless I've floated for long now
or come and stub out this bag of bones
for one last touch from you death will wait...

Prolong

Slow down and

breath a while

you've been many places

that have robbed you off your smile

Breathe now

and live out a memory

sing for what's your

and dance in this moment's harmony

tender and young, your mind

is just like your heart

far you've come, away from home

just to make a brand new start

walking along, you met some 

strangers on the way

some familiar faces

and other that made home seem far away

you're exceptional in your speed

but innocent in your eyes

the world couldn't have been cruel place 

not from your eyes...

you've music in your blood

that makes everything around sing

you've a rhythm in your living

and that's the beauty you bring

I cannot tell you the value of love

cause in many ways you live it

everyday in the way you live

I stand in a corner and see you fly

away from all the trappings

of a young butterfly

you soar high into the sky

and come down to rest at will

leaving behind all those jealous

and spilling the honey of love

but life is not only a garden of roses

and even those flowers have thorns

life is like a mountain, that's hard to climb

but give it time and you'll get to the top soon

and then you'll see the whole world shine...

you are tough, and stronger than most

and everyday you fly far from your coast

and mingle with birds from another sky

in the hope of finding your true identity

discovery is your true love,

and for your true love you wait,

patiently and lovingly

touching everyone along the way

I know you like looking the sky

in the hope of finding your own star

I wish someday

you find one just like you...

beautiful inside out

and shining for even those unknown to you 

your sweet core is your inner smile
but unlike most you have a soft exterior too
crumbly but not melting
you are a tough cookie...

lighting the path of others

before shining some on yourself

far you will go, I pray

if only, you love yourself,

and set yourself free...

उड़ान 

दूर है अभी मंजिल

सांस फिर क्यूँ 

भर आई है 

इतनी तो गुजरी नहीं उम्र 

यादों में बन जो 

आँखों से मुरझाई है 

 साकी भी अभी फलक से दूर है

दूरी उसे भी कहाँ मंज़ूर है

शिद्दत मैं लेकिन अपनी 

हर इंसान को गुरूर है

मैं तोह अपने पंखों में उलझा 

नदियों में बहता 

बातों में ढलता 

चलता नहीं हूँ

दुनिया भागती है

फिर रुकता नहीं हूँ

सांस भर आती है 

इधर से उधर से
राहें बुलाती हैं
क़दमों के निशान तो हैं
पर ज़िन्दगी फिर भी बाघी है 

कितना दूर भागा
और किस्से भाग पाया
अपने साए में लिपटा
बस एक भीगा एहसास

पंख अब खुले हैं
उड़ने को खुला आसमान है
अभी जो ज़मीन से उठा हूँ 
क़दमों के बाकी क्यूँ निशाँ हैं 

Toast

what gets a teetotaler to drink?

an ecstasy unimaginable

or a life on the brink

a whiff of love, or a morbidness coy

think of it as you may

but when the glass of wine

sips the lips

the reasons begin to fade away

and all love flows through wet eyes

melting the layers of pretense
lowering the guard,

the truth forever slipping through alibis

Poetic almost,
for if  anyone deserves to know

then its this caged bottle of wine,

with every sip it takes me in

and with every note

I gain myself unhinged

drinking they say makes you free
brings out the pain,
or let love become glee

Its an open road,
that can led you down
or let you fly

open some closed chapter
or raise the ones invisible
to the insipid eyes

my ecstasy was hindered to none,
or to be drunk on the name of one
covert and hidden in my mind's eye
bottled up, and sealed for any pry

And then I tasted this potion
the one that changed my notion
and even if for a moment 
it made me live out my dreams

I tasted your lips divine,
a candid ecstasy uncorked
with the whiff of wine

The melted candle
that kept burning like the night
igniting the long-locked emotions,
turning on the light..

You cannot know my love for you,

Even on the verge of death

I would go down gladly with a smile,
praying for you...

but before we grow old

I wish for us to not turn shy

lift this glass,
even if from a distance

and raise me a toast

to the banality; a roast

on the edges of the glass

my life turns round

with my hands locked in yours,

a pleasure unwound

these tiny sips spirit my desire

inch you closer

or simply take me higher

up where you sit

smiling your mischievous smiles
laughing at my misery
as the joys begin to fade after a while

I wonder after sipping the brew
if my life changed, or simply I did
by unlocking the bottle,
and that part of you in me

Either way, soon it will be a trend
to reach out to you my love
even if through the eyes
of my new found friend...

I need more intoxication now

before reality wins
Open arms lingering in wait
and a mind open towards sin...

Divine Comedy

The love you seek

is not hard to find

just tell yourself what you need

and back it up with a spine

looking for shelter

with a hope in mind

I set out to find what love is

far away from the confines of my mind

I did it when I thought it was time

took the plunge only to find

some colors of paradise

amidst some misty haze

a love worth loving

with all its tenderness,

a memory worth a lifetime

and a fulfilled space

often logics obscure hope

for hope dwells in the heart

as thoughts dwell in the mind

I found you

when I lost myself

being too sure

was only keeping you from being mine

love is not the hardest climb

the journey though can get

hard to cope

the hope in your heart

needs to meet

the promise on your lips

for you to unearth

every glory

conquer every page

and all the fear

that you've so far caged

the love you seek is not hard to find

the trick is to know

that it's not out there

but within from where it becomes divine

तुम्हारा जन्मदिन

कल है तुम्हारा जन्मदिन 

साल का सबसे पहला वोही दिन 

दिन आज फिर कुछ अलग है 

साए में तुम्हारे यह अब है 

दिख्ता है अब तुम सा यह दिन

कल है तुम्हारा जन्मदिन

चरों तरफ हैं साए,

टूटी आवाजें हमारी

दूरी तो है मगर बस अब 

थोड़े कदम पे है आज़ादी

शिकवे है कितने जो बरसे 

अरमान वोही जिन के लिए तरसे

तुम कहो अब मिलें तुमसे आके 

बाकी कहाँ है ज़िन्दगी तुम बिन 

मर जायें अगर तो भी अधूरे

बातें बाकी और तारे भी साए

मौत की भी कहानी है 

मर मर के डरते

कर कर के भरते 
लड़ते और अड़ते 
तुम ही से बनते और 
तुम पर ही बिगड़ते 

बस तुम्ही हो अब 

तसवीरें कुछ उन यारों की 

तेरे मेरे सारों की

करवटों लेती एक्रारों की 

जिनसे मिलना अभी बाकी है 

उन बचपन के व्यापारों की 

खो दिए जो तेरे पल मैंने 

उसके आंसुओं के धारों की 

मर मर के अब न मिट पाएंगे

तुम्हे खो देंगे, सो जायेंगे

उस नींद से अब सुबह होगी

जहाँ जागेंगे तेरे चेहरे पे 

Going Away

We've a long distance standing in our way

we've come far, but it looks like

we might have to turn away

or turn back I know not yet

I cry, and you spill the tears

helping me realise the worst of my fears

I take it you know pain

we've bled into each others veins

Time heals only the memory of the dead

the living continue to gnaw

and dominate the makings of  life

bit by bit, the changing strides

leading in directions, both ambiguous and known
walking the hard yards in shoes once 

were only yours to be worn
but now seem alien as day

space it out and give it time

seem perfectly plausible approaches

but why do they not know

I wasn't born this way

what makes me special

also makes me bad taste

my makers you know this

and it's been with me before I was chaste

but now I'm unpure,
unattended and obscure

slowly getting lost in my own delusions

stumbling between self-loathing and confusions

this life is good, the only problem is that  I feel

the misery in seeing what others don't

however, is that I live it but it doesn't heal

How do you reason with pain

that you willingly take?

Who do you question? 

What can you salvage...?

Taking a few steps back,

I see my reflection asking me

to change my direction or

end this journey before I become more of myself

unfaithful and unprejudiced is the heart,

knowing all the truth from the start

yet doing everything to keep it at bay

let you fantasize even on the funeral pyre

I wish one could step away from one's own being

live without knowing control or knowing control

away from the purview of a living being

A world free of misunderstandings and hate,

complicated thoughts and rigid distances

How I wish...

Words 

Let me touch you with my words,

for my hands I will leave this empty glance

let me kiss you with this thought

my lips are numb from the missed chance

let me not kill this sight that lends fire

my soul is still burning

and my heart is all desire

Within you I lose myself,

and without I find myself waiting for a chance

what will I take of you

back with me

with these lifeless hands?

Let me love you as you sit in that chair,

without any movement

strip you bare, with this thought

and the sound of kiss

these thoughts will do the elusive trick

Let my words stroke your hair,

slide down your back,

and tickle your belly

My hands, stubborn as brick,

lie lifelessly,

not willing to carry out
my simplest desires

Let my words enter your mind,

bearing torches,

and lit them willingly into your being,

so they may caress you gently within...

From my lips to your heart,

despite this distance,

there will be a road still...

Without my hands and sight,

flying with my words and in my might

My love will take me there,

Where you wait for me...

Where I wait for completion... of every kind