Still

I'm going back to the corner

where I first saw you

deep with my heart

it seems all brand new

There are some memories by the door

of that lasting sweet smell

when you'd walk in unannounced

and somewhere in those notes I still dwell

The strings are floating in the air

the music though is new

it's the season of our togetherness

why then so far are you

I'm sitting by the phone

just waiting for a sound

hoping you'd call and wake me up

turn the clock around

The distance doesn't have me fooled

I'm more in love with you

farther from your affection

but closer to what's our due

You know as well as me

I'm not here by will

without you in this abyss

I'm just living as a decrepit

They offer me a glass of wine

to take a sip and sulk

than write and whine

how do I tell them who you are

Will they ever know what you mean

do I have the words to make them see

I'm struggling to ask questions

for its been long since I longed to see

I've wandered off before

the travails have been fun

but this road that I'm on

I've been here too long

I long for an embrace

from nobody else but you

the day goes by quietly

but the night screams at me asking of you

I've moved into groups

they have caged by tears with their rants

but where do I hide the empty spaces

with these broken battered hands

The pictures have melted me beyond tears

my eyes now rest, closed

the only sight to move them

is of you being here...

I'm not moving
for you might come looking for me here
the distance is too much to arouse hope
but within my heart it grows  

Sure

We love from distance

because we're sure,

we love despite resistance

because we couldn't be anything

or anyone anymore

The care is lasting,

our love is a storm

There ain't a nightmare,

we can't take head-on,

we've been reckoned this way...

From the sultry nights

to the dizzying heights

keep me sane from the maddening flight

that is you and I...

We love from our might,

a form or shape peculiar to world's gaze,

smirking at the horizon,

making merry in this haze

You and I have a story to tell,

and we'll tell it right,

swinging back and forth in measured paces,

oblivious to any fright,

we'll get there alright...

What you are to me,

no one will ever know

an infinitesimal energy,

a bundle of hope, a resting place

Oh, death will come to me slow...

all the secrets of this life I now know

Marching fervently in tepid directions,

and reaching out for the impossible life,

spreading thin the sorrows,

wafting out the realities too,

and dreaming till it's daylight

Oh, the nights hang in wait...

curling up in all directions

as you and I are kept at a distance

the wait gets unbearable at times

as reality gets too hard to take 

So you see,

I wait for you on the other side,

at the cusp of the circumference

where light illuminates those virgin grounds,

where rasping voices sing solemn blues,

and memories yield more than teardrops...

flying as we go,

right past the rainbows' hues

playing our own tracks,

as life takes cues... 

Inseparable

There are one dreams too many

as I close my eyes

your breath still heavy on my skin

as I turn off the lights

You absence, my sordid fear

the darkness, too much to take

the missing link in my being

is your want for which my heart aches

The haunting melodies

of your symphonies

that strain my ears,

you are close deep within, treasured,

but lingering away

from my eyes

I long for answers

as I prepare for abandon

there are none, however, that I will take

even as reasons weaken might

I will ask only that

which I can’t forsake

The road you and I are on

blends at the seams

yet the journey is long

and the burden

seemingly more than I can take

Bit by bit it’s grazing me to the bone

I know its progress

but the forthcoming distance

is a pain I've not known

I admit it’s an apt yearning

progression fueling the long-withheld desire

the insatiable want versus

the logical need

And yet there are casualties

Oh, the hearts on fire

the killing wait, an abject test

of wanting someone even more

Did I tell you you’re all my reasons

and alibis?

Within you my being resides

Within you is my resting place

If only you could be the reliever

of all my desires…